What’s the plan?!
I’d be lying if I said this was not on mind…
…It doesn’t upset me to think about it. I’m coming up to round six of Chemotherapy, which means I am at or almost the point where my Oncologist and his team in Halifax would like to see if I am making any progress or if the Chemo is doing its job. Which is exciting in one way, because I am optimistic I’ve made progress. I certainly feel a lot better than I did, when I walked into this back in December!
However, as I said, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t thinking about the “what if’s”. I always try to avoid thinking about the “what if’s” and this is no exception, but the thoughts are sneaking in somehow… So I thought I’d share with you guys what I’m thinking. So here it is..
I’m due to get tests done, CAT and MRI scans, which will likely be assessed by my Oncologist. What we’re hoping is this the last three months of Chemotherapy has sent the Cancer packing, it’s shrunk, its gone, it’s disappeared. Wouldn’t that be fantastic?! Not likely though. So let’s think rationally for a minute.. What are they likely to say?
-The tumors have shrunk, lets keep going with Chemo.
-The tumors have shrunk, let’s do surgery & more Chemo.
- Everything is going to plan, let’s do radiotherapy
Whatever, right?.. There's so many possibilities how this could turn, but none of them I factor in a negative outcome. Why? I honestly believe there has been changes for the good, and I’d rather put my energy into believing that, than focus on dismal negative outcomes.
Although… If they decide I need surgery, I’ll do whatever the Doctors say is my best fighting chance, but if surgery is put in front of me, that would be my least wanted option. Why? Well to put it bluntly, I don’t want be shitting out of a bag. I don’t particularly want to be carrying a colostomy bag everywhere. But if that’s what takes to beat this thing, so be it. Bring it on!
That aside, round five has been pretty good. I feel like I finally listened to the people who have been telling me to slow down. Now, some might disagree. But I feel I have made a solid effort to slow things down in my day to day walkabout.
So whether it be the slowing down or actually following my medication strictly, both is a winning combination so no wonder round five I felt half decent. Tired easily, but compared to the tail end of round four… I’m feeling pretty good 👌
The other night we watched this documentary that was recommended to us called Heal, I highly recommend it. I don’t want to ruin it for you, but there was this one part that stood out to me. In the documentary they listed nine of the common healing factors in radical remission cases in cancer patients. I found it uncanny that I am already or have done majority of, if not all that is listed, before ever watching or hearing about this documentary. I guess we’ll find out if any of it has been working when we get these test results back…